3 posts from January 2009

New Years Goofiness 2009

I've been having a lot of introspection time lately.  Charlotte still isn't going to sleep for the night until around 3am, so I'm up late with Abram trying to soothe her and make her sleep.  Laying in our bed with her in between us, looking over at him and realizing that we haven't kissed or cuddled much since she's been born, really sucks something out of me. 

I don't realize how much I miss the contact with him until I don't have it.  Until Charlotte was born, I took every kiss and little passing butt pinch for granted.  Now, time even touching while wathing TV is precious.  Kissing?  We have to remember to do it.  Telling each other "I love you" is now a routine for me, but a good one.  It's not obligatory at all, but I constantly look at him and Charlotte together and think to myself "Damn I love that man" and instead of just thinking it, I make myself say it. 

I had read about the toll having a baby takes on the intimacy of a marriage, but I didn't realize it ran so shallow.  Sure, you don't have sex for awhile, I figured that.  That's the deep intimacy level.  But this shallow water -- just hugging, cuddling, kissing -- I wasn't prepared for the effort it would take to maintain that sweet, every day intimacy.

Luckily, I have a kick ass husband who isn't freaked out by me coming up to him out of the blue and clinging to him, telling him I love him, and then grabbing his junk.  :)  We're cool like that. 

Show us a picture taken last night.

Loves Ya

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I'm hoping that as Charlotte gets older, I'll have a little more time to blog.  I used to post at least every day, and sometimes more than once a day.  Now, I'm lucky if I get to brush my hair once a day.  I've lost touch with all but a few of my VOX neighbors and feel out of the loop on so many levels.  However, with this new year I'm hoping to get back into the habit of blogging. 

Charlotte is 6 weeks old this week, and she's prettier every day.  I can't get over how in love with her we are.

I was terrified to get on the scale since I gave birth.  I feel like a beached whale, and I assumed I look like one too.  But last night I got dressed up for New Years Eve (although we just stayed in and watched the ball drop) and Abram showered me with compliments and really seemed impressed with my bouncing back body.  So...this morning I sucked it up and got on the scale. 

Aside from the 10+ pounds I lost just from giving birth, I have lost a little more than 25 pounds in the following 6 weeks.  I was super excited to realize that.  And all without any exercise at all!  Imagine what I can lose when I get off my ass! 

My face is almost back to it's un-puffy, pre-pregnancy size....which is nice.  It sucked not having a distinction between my chin and neck....

New Years Self-Portrait 2009

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